Sweet Troubled Soul #16

Did I already use this title??

Eh. Anyway.

Woah. This has got to be the most pointless weekend ever. I have done absolutely nothing. I've been on the computer all week and I haven't even started my science term project, which the due date is coming up, and I'm supposed to be taking pictures of clouds... Yes. I know. I'm screwed.

I'm just so lazy. I have no desire whatsoever to get off my butt and do something. I feel drained, and I don't want to waste my energy on something that won't even make a difference. I'm having another "I HAVE NO LIFE" episodes. I hate complaining but I just end up doing it so often. I don't feel like complaining right now...

Yeah. So I don't really know what to talk about. I could go on about my tablet again, but that got old... Cough.

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I have to go to lunch with my mother now.

Can anybody find their home?

I love Doug. #15

Holy cow. Christmas is over.

Can you believe it? All of that craziness... It just stopped. My mom is having a really hard time. My Grandma hates my brother for some reason :P Seriously. She won't hug him. I mean, she tries to act all "Holy cow I love all my grandchildren equal! I love Justin!" but she definitely doesn't act like it... It's really distressing. What if she hates me next?! Just kidding, my Grandmammy is psycho so I wouldn't mind that much.

How was your Christmas? Good? Hopefully.

Mine was great. It was different. I wasn't a little kid anymore. I SLEPT IN!! I'm usually up at like 4:00am checking out our loot... I didn't do it this year. We didn't even set out milk and cookies... I guess everyone in my family is above 12 years old, but still. It felt wrong. It seemed like it was my last Christmas where I was considered the youngest. My nephew has taken over that job. We all sit around and watch him open his presents, and I think "It's over." I will be buying presents for my children one day, and not expecting anything back. Maybe that is a good thing but it seems like it's the end of a long story. Like a bad movie where the bad guy wins...

I got a Wacom Tablet. Do you know what that is?
Here is an explanation:
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I was so eager to get this. I wanted it SO bad. It was expensive though... I felt horrible. I knew my parents would try to get it, and so I didn't ask for anything else. But then my mom got mad at me and made me make a list... gah. Well, now that I have it, I don't know what to do with it. I've been trying to color art, and draw things but it's kind of difficult to get used to. You have to look at the monitor and then draw at the same time on the tablet. I've gotten better :D

Peacebuilding

Peacebuilding, a term that has been drilled into our brains for the past few years that, in my mind, means being a hero no matter how small the deed. Why are we learning it? Honestly, I have no steady answer, but I will try to give my best explanation of this oh-so-powerful force. Praise others, or those who need it, is a quality that we all could add to our daily routine. Along with praising we need to notice that people are hurt, to know when we need to help, and to understand what they need, and we are desperately in need of that one "peacebulding" person to help us along the way. Seeking wise people is something I belive we all could work on, and we can find great examples in The Yearling. One person is waiting for you to take this term into your life and help them.
"Good Job!" is all it takes. One little phrase can pick a person's whole day up. Praise people for what they have done, and don't critisize them for things they didn't do or did wrong. I belive the best example of this is Father and Son. Penny and Jody, a great pairing that supported eachother. The expiriences I think of is when Jody thinks of his father and belives him the most incredible man ever. He believed in Penny, and I think he provied support when Penny was in need. On the other side, there is Penny praising his son. I think that Penny believed in his son, and was noticable of his wants and needs. He knew he wanted to go on the hunt, and he praised his son when they went after ol' slewfoot. This is a classic example of praising others, Father and Son.
Noticing hurts is something I wish that people at our school would understand more. I wish they could realize that me or others where having a rough day and give us a pat on the back. Noticing hurts means knowing others are in needs and not just noticing. Take action. The examples I thought of where Jody doens't do his chores. Simple but it shows that he cares. He feels bad that he didn't help his family. He notices his family was hurting because they really needed his help. ANother, corny, but good example is when Julia is hurt, he always asks how she is doing and tries to help Penny take care of her. I liked that part of the story. While noticing peoples pain and grief Jody learns to seek for the wise people in his life.
Yes, another Father and Son example. Seeking guidence from others is a quality that can be put into our lives, creating less conflict, and solving problems easier. Jody often travels to his father for a helping hand and advice. I love how Penny teaches Jody to hunt, I think that this bonding is a perfect example of learning fron one another and seeking knowladge. The other I thought of was Fodder-wig. Jody always thinks of Fokdder-wig and takes things he has learned from his friend and applies those things to his life. Through all these qualities we find that Jody is the center. Jody, in my oppinion, is a peacebuilder.
Peacebuilding is the basic system that we all should apply to our lives. Whether it be seeking out the wise, noticing the small greif people have, or simply praising one person. It is something that each of us should use each day. I hope that we can understand its meaning. Be a peacebuilder, Today.

Do you hear what I hear?... #14

City streets at night can be so intimidating. I'm not the toughest guy; I got to keep my eyes open. Man you really freak me out. I'm so afraid of you. And when I loose my cool, I don’t know what to do. I know you don’t mean no harm; you're just doing your thing, but man you really freak me out.

Having a glorious day, I am. I'm just so happy for some reason. I think it’s because I went to Temple Square today. It was great, cold, but great. I really needed a relaxing day. I'm going to sleep well tonight.
Well, I'm sitting here being terribly lost on what to write about and CSI: Crime Scene Investigation (so the Las Vegas one if you didn't know) in the background. So I guess I'm writing about CSI. I find this show thoroughly entertaining and interesting. I love figuring out the crimes before they do. It makes me feel excited to watch the next one. Currently the episode we are watching is about bloody head found in... A newspaper stand... with a snake shoved down her throat... It’s very interesting. It is about Mexican Drug Ballads, called NariCaridos are something like that. I've seen it like three separate times, but still, I am fascinated. I actually considered taking the course at UNLV when I get into college. They actually have a course for CSI!! I don’t think I could handle dead bodies though... *twitch*
Candy Cane.
Anyway. So this episode was so dramatic because the group got split up! Nick and Warrick got moved onto Catharine's (who got promoted) shift and then Gris got Sara, Greg and this new lady... Sophia I think. And so it was all tense because nobody knew what to do or think... Yeah. If you know what I'm talking about, I pity you for being as big of a loser as me. This episode scares meeeeee.


Okay, Lori wanted me to talk about Einstein, so I'm going to. Einstein... Nice guy, I assume. I don't know too much about him but I know he was a great influence to us. You know? I mean E=Mc (squared sign here please) wasn’t that him? I have no idea what it actually means but its great! I mean come on! We all need to know what "e" equals!!

Random but I really like this monologue:

MARTHA: In the beginning, I am mean and greedy and selfish. This is symbolized by three things, a: There is a half-finished sculpture of an angel in my garage. B: There is a hungry little boy that sleeps on my doorstep every night that I call the police on. And C: I have a dying father that I haven't talked to in years. Then one day I see the error of my ways. I don't know how, I don't know. But I see it. Then: [Pause, a little smile.] The song comes on. And in the three minute duration of this song. I make all of the changes I need to in my life. They are symbolized by A: I finish the angel sculpture in my garage, and incidentally it is a masterpiece. B: I feed the little hungry boy on my porch, I bring him in the home and incidentally he becomes a senator and loves me. And finally C: I call my Father and tears stream from our eyes as we tell each other we love one another, and incidentally moments later he dies. But I tell him in time. And then moments later all is right in the world and this is symbolized by an ambient, light that my soul generates. [She is choked up.] Excuse me. Excuse me. It's just so dramatic. I do all that in the duration of a three minute song. It frustrates me so that I can't change like that. It is amazing how the people whose stories are told by movies, during the duration of one song, can switch their whole life around. I want a dramatic life like that.

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I have to go to bed, my father is making me…

Good bye!