Emotion keeps my heart on me... #13

Heyo. The title is referring to a song by Keane called "Can't Stop Now" I just happened to be listening to it while I was typing the title. It's a great band, check them out.

Amazing. I'm sitting here with a Christmas tree looming over my shoulder... like a big pile of guilt. Christmas season is wonderful n' all but that means I have to get presents, and I feel horrible. I remember when I was a little kid I would love getting piles and piles of presents (that is an exaggeration. My parents aren't filthy rich) and would accept them no matter what. Now I only have two things on my "Christmas list" because they happen to be more expensive and I feel terrible for making my parents buy me things. Man, what a difficult holiday. I hope I don't end up like my father who happens to be a very good example of Ebenezer Scrooge. He hates Christmas. He believes that has become a commercial joke and that no one remembers what SHOULD be about, which is true, but come on. The Christmas lights are pretty, STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT PUTTING THEM UP! Just playing around. I love my papa during Christmas. He is such a good sport. He just mumbles underneath his breath at us as we decorate the tree.

I love Christmas, as most people do. I decided that his year that I am going to soak up every little drop of Christmas, considering that this is one of my last "childhood" Christmases that I will ever have, really. I mean, after this year it will be more about deciding my future. Not the next game in the Mario series, you know? It really freaks me out! I just want to stay a kid foreeeeeeeeever!! ... Ha-ha. Peter Pan corrupted me. That is an incredible book by the way...

Hmm.... Batteries...

I feel like Christmas is the holiday that brings my family together and it makes me very happy. My family is VERY sarcastic and very insensitive to things. It really can be a problem, so seeing them just all cooperate and have fun is just great.

I was told by a friend to read the last paragraph of Cory Carling's blog and I think that sounds great. I'm planning on wearing green tomorrow since I own no red... I don’t know why either... I should. I mean, Red is a good color.

Anyway. We are singing Christmas music in choir now. I love it. Every day it seems more and more like the holidays. It makes me extremely giddy. :D I'm sure everyone in the choirs loves this time of year. The music is just so incredible and uplifting. On Halloween I went Christmas caroling with a bunch of friends and it was so fun. We just basically goofed off and sang when we felt like it. Most of the time we sang Jingle Bells and We wish you a merry Christmas... now it seems so weird that Christmas is ACTUALLY here. You know?

Man this blog makes no sense. I need candy ASAP!!!

Well, I have to go eat candy now! See you all at school tomorrow.

Spoofteh.

Egh. #12

I'm so worn down this week. I'm just ready to start a new one. I've been going through all my folders on my computer and found this little plot that was wandering through my brain. I confused me, I had no idea what I was going for or where this came from. I don't remember how I thought of the idea... I think it was because I'm a hopeless romantic and wanted to write a good romance story.... It didn't really go through but I really liked writing it:

Desire, a powerful emotion that drives many people. Some people drop all that they have gained in their lifetime to reach that one far away dream. It is one emotion that can be wonderful, yet dangerous at the same time. Cindy Evans is powered by her desire to find truth in a world that could never be. This is her story, this is a story of a desire so strong, that the whole world depends on its fulfillment. The story begins in Northland High School, when Cindy was a junior.

Cindy glided down the hall as usual, with a bleak expression on her plain face. She sighed as people continually bumped into her, hitting her books slightly out of her hand. With each bump her books slid slightly farther off her arm. She took no notice. She was used to the crazy halls of high school. She glanced at the clock on the wall, trying not to be late. Cindy was a few steps from her classroom when one final bump sent her notebook flying out of her hands. Cindy sighed and bent down to pick up her books.
“Another day, another mishap.” She grumbled and reached for her notebook, but was beat by another hand. The hand was covered in a gauntlet very familiar to her.
“Miss Cindy, Garta needs your help…” A sweet voice called out to Cindy and brought her head up to the face. Her jaw dropped as she gazed upon a man she thought to be imaginary, she believed he only existed in her mind.
“No freaking way… Cammon... is that you?” Cindy gazed into the familiar face of Cammon, her dear friend… from Garta.

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Garta, a magical place where there is no impossible. No doubt that you have traveled there yourself. It’s a place where most go to find peace, inspiration, and knowledge of themselves. Most don’t relize they have gone there, some get lost in the dream and never seem to leave, and there are some who go to Garta seeking answers then find out too much. Cindy is an exception to all these people. She was brought to Garta by destiny, and her desire to find her greater purpose. She first went to Garta 2 years ago.

“Make way!! New comer!!” A large, stern looking guard pushed a now dazed Cindy through a large crowd. Cindy looked around as if she were a three year old in a zoo.
“Sir… “ Cindy whispered quietly to the guard. “Sir, excuse me, but where am I?” Cindy still questioned the guard quiety. He simply looked down at her and gave a smile, which seemed to make the stern face almost kind.
“Bring her to me!” A round, loud voice called out.

I didn't exactly finish it up, I should, but I feel very lazy.

This week my brother is visiting from Memphis, it should be an incredible week...

Harry Potter 4... IS AMAZING. I was so into it, maybe it was because it was 2:00am by the time I got home. Anyway, I loved it.

Becca-lou! GET BETTER! I was so scared when you told me what happened... *huge hug*

What is wrong with teapots? #11

Hallo again, to the wonderful world of Sarah... Well. Semi-Wonderful. I'm just going to be straight out and tell you guys what I want to talk about... What I WANT to talk about. I tend to change subjects and points... a lot... er.. Yeah.

I've been looking around at past blog entries, hoping for some inspiration and I found some. Lori Stettler, you are incredible. I was reading your blog and I was just amazed at your talent, and fluency in your writing. It was great. The blog I was most interested in was 'I'm NOT a Little Tea Pot' I thought it was.. Funny. Not to be rude, because I TOTALLY understand the 'Can't sing in front of people' concept. It's just terrifying. But I think it is all in our minds. We can decide if it bugs us or not. I decided early on that I HATE doing anything that shows myself off or anything in that department. Jr. High changed that and I realized I would get NO WHERE if I stay inside the little box of my mind. I've been developing my social skills and confidence in myself over the last years and it has been TERRIBLY HAAAAARD!! I mean, You would think after like three years you would be able to get something down but I haven't even moved up on a scale of one to ten. I'm still sittin at around a four of five. I'm okay but I could be better at speaking to people.

Courage in oneself is something I think we all need to learn and decide whether we want it or not. Personally, the whole 'born with it' thing isn't always true. I've never been an outgoing person but I've defintly gotten better in my life. I mean some people are just better at it, they work harder, so stop complaining that you weren't 'born' with a special talent. Get your but into gear and develop it. I'm a hypocrite, I complain everyday. . . A lot. I really do and I know it's wrong but it is hard. I just need to suck it up and go on with life. I am me. That is it. I can't do anything about what I was given. I can just work with it.

I think I'm just trying to convince myself that I am worth more than I belief. I don't know if that is a good thing or not.

Lori Stettler, I just want you to know that I think you are immensely talented and I love your singing voice. You are always smiling and friends with so many people. I am glad I've been able to you your friend!!

I better go to bed... Holy crap! It is only 8:16?!?! Er... Woah, being sick sure makes the time go wack. See you all at school.

soda

Soda Pop Goodness #10

Woo.. What a week. FINALLY! Pirates of Penzance is over and I am exhausted. All of Rhapsody is probably so glad it's over, or atleast I would think so...

I don't really know what I'm going to base this blog on. I'm drawing a blank right now. Well, I guess I will talk about which is better, coke or pepsi. I honestly love both, it just depends on my mood but my mom is trying to convince me that Pepsi is of the Devil. She is a coke person, but I tend to go toward the Pepsi side. I have been drinking Coke my whole life and I think it is very nice to have a break and have a Pepsi once in a while. One thing about both I don't like (Coke not as much) is when they add all these weird flavors. Like I'm drinking a DIET PEPSI TWIST right now.. Not a Pepsi..


Okay, I'm just messing around. I'm really going to elaborate on Patti's entry about Half Blood Prince.

SPOILERS!! DO NOT READ ON IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENS IN HARRY POTTER SIX!!
I generally agree with most of what she said, but I think that this was the best book Rowling has wrote yet. I wasn't sure about the ending when Dumbledor begged for his life, I think that seemed VERY out of character. Dumbledore is the greatest wizard ever and he BEGS?! I don't understand that. I was happy to see her sum up the amazing Snape character. Is he good? Is he bad? Apparently, he is bad... I think so. I think that he can't redeem himself now. EVEN IF he and Dumbledore have a secret, I still believe that Snape has caused too much trouble. I think he is an incredible character and it was fun to watch him develop more through out the books but I think that it's good that she finally decided his side; good or evil.

I was SO happy about the Harry-Ginny relationship, I was so giddy when he kissed her at the after party of the quidditch match! I was jumping up and down. They needed that to happen, and it added so much to Harry's character. It was such a great side-plot to the whole voldemort story. It was great!! I still think that Won-Won needs to get his act together and stop saying Bloody-'Ell! So much... Well, actually I think that adds a lot to him, it shows that he is still Won-Won after all of the trials that they have faced.

Auntie Patti is going to kill me. SNAPE IS NOT HOT! No way have I, nor will I be attracted to him in any way. HE KILLED DUMBLEDORE!? How can that be "sexy". It just is wrong! ... I respect Patti's thoughts, but I thoroughly disagree. I can't forgive him. AH! Lupin! I thought the little side plot of Lupin and Tonks was great!! Just so you know...

Honestly, I would rather read Leven Thumps and The Gateway to Foo a few more times than read the Harry Potter series again... I mean, I would love to but I enjoy other books a little bit more. I just need to finish the series. Well, I must go. My Diet Pepsi Twist needs to be thrown away...

ha. Farewell and Good Night.